Have you decided who you'll be for 2013?

Taking this weekend to prepare for the New Year!:) And a new life.

Yihaa!

maybe the reason this relationship is no longer working is that I'm no longer the same girl I was five years ago.

Or three years ago.

Thank God.

Boom.

I'm happy for you now.

The only question is:

Why couldn't you be happy with me then?

You were a part of my past.

You are absent from my present.

Whether you will be in my future is up to you. And my mood. It depends on my mood.

On being thankful

Starting with a friend's wedding on the first weekend of December, I have been attending Mass regularly (at the time of this writing, a total of 3 times!).

I'm not a particularly religious person, though I did study in a Catholic school. Attending Mass nowadays is not because I've reached or am reaching for a certain kind of enlightenment. It's actually something I promised God back when I was studying for the bar. okay, okay, I wasn't exactly praying those times (I left that to my Mom), I was engaging in hardball negotiations. Hehehe.

I did say that if I failed, I was going to kill myself :(  And if I passed the bar, I was going to go to Mass for one whole year.

I took the bar back in 2007 and the results were out in 2008. God has been very good to me and my family during the intervening years between then and now, and I'm also thankful for that.

Almost five years later, I'm only now starting to hold my end of the bargain.

Sorry, I'm late.

not sure if I should continue singing

"I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love"
(Jason Mraz)

or if I should just sing

f*ck you (f*ck you)
f*ck you very, very much
(Lily Allen)

naaah! I've already made up my mind about you. There's no uncertainty left.

I've noticed that my site has been receiving a lot of traffic from suicidekings.biz...I'm not on suicide watch, am I? Hehehe.

I wonder what gamers like about my site?

2013 Resolutions

I was having a hard time coming up with what I really wanted to focus on for 2013. Until I received an email from a friend who shall not be named! It was a forwarded email of (of all things!) a novena to St. Joseph....for a good spouse! Hahaha!

Well, aaaanyywaayyy, I know she meant well, and after some research (because I'm OC like that) I found out that the St. Joseph novena also works for career, and real estate concerns. Hmmmm....

Well, I'm quite happy with my job. I could always use more real estate (hehehe). Uhm, a good spouse? I'm sure that will be nice in the future, but it requires commitment, right??? Geez, even the novena requires some level of commitment and effort. :)

But, I digress. I made up my mind about my resolutions! I've narrowed it down to one!

CREATE!

it could be anything...artistic projects, opportunities, happiness, discord (jk)....

or

procreate. Yeah, that'll do.:)

December, you break my heart.

It's official!

A long and difficult road ahead of me.

I believe I can do this.

I will deal with this.

give me something concrete to hold on to or let me just walk away

Jaipur - Amber Fort

From the road

We needed an elephant to ride up to the fort. Views during the elephant ride:

This is a really huge fort, with walls and  guard houses(?) up in the mountains:

The elephant ride ended inside the fort's courtyard

Inside the fort, there are palaces. I was kind of lazy to take pictures already so, here are some that I managed to get:

There was even a building decorated with mirror slivers arranged in beautiful patters.

There's still a lot to see in India and someday maybe I could go back there!

Jaipur

We rode the train from Agra to Jaipur (a sleeper train with beds and curtains!) I got a bit sick (ok really sick)   so I wasn't with them the first day of shopping and some sightseeing.

Second day in Jaipur, despite still being a bit clammy, I went to do some sightseeing!

The Palace of the Winds

We also went to the City Palace, which is still where the reigning Maharajah(?) lives:

A peacock from the Peacock Gate inside the City Palace

Pictures from the Amber Fort in the next post.