continuation

it was the quietest ride home. we haven't been together long enough for me to tell if it was one of those comfortable silences....aw heck!!! it was damned uncomfortable... I was thinking "ohshitohshitohshit"

my muscles ached from sitting so still so I won't appear affected, except I probably looked constipated with the tension.

he turned on the radio. we both had nothing to say. I don't know what he was thinking, probably what he wanted for dinner. we really had nothing to say. let's just say that the 20-minute ride home took forever.

and in one of those scenes (which only happens in movies) the skies turned dark and lightning flashed in the distance....how fitting.

finally, we arrived at our house, I couldn't wait to get out of the car (haha, before the rain started to fall)...

him: so...about next week...?
(we were supposed to go to his friend's engagement party. what is it with getting married these days?)

me: yeah... I'll be ready. Pick me up at 2?

silence

him: yeah, about that...I was thinking maybe I should go alone...

me: oh!....okay....I really don't know anyone there anyway...
bitchy me screaming in my head: since when? since kanina? and what am I going to do with the dress I bought?!!!

rain was falling, more silence inside the car

me: look, I'd better get inside. text me when you get home. bye.
(thought about our usual goodbye kiss, but decided not to and rushed out of the car...didn't look back...hey, he didn't even wait for me to get inside the house like he usually does)