I get it

I have a mistake I keep on making over and over again...Please don't judge me, I don't follow the adage about making the same mistake twice, etc etc.

So, this must be the life lesson I'm supposed to be learning. I get it. But I still act contrary to the lesson I've learned. I guess God will put me in this situation over and over again until I learn it.

The problem is I know the mistake, I just choose to ignore it.

How do I make the right decision when my heart and my mind are in disagreement? The right decision according to my mind always feels so wrong deep inside. How do I stay away (the right move says my mind) when my heart yearns for you?

But then again, my heart is stupid and irrational. It doesn't seem to notice that it gets hurt every time and yet it still keeps coming back. Over and over and over and over...

Shoot me please.