comes back and bites me

As the baby grabbed my finger and held on tight, I looked up straight into your eyes. I thought:

"Oh my god. He could be our baby."

But a lot of things got in the way of "us".

"Should-haves, would-haves, could-haves." Nothing.

What can I say? When I was younger, I did "young and stupid" really really really well.

So true!

From bookfessions.tumblr.com

Save me

You are my passion and my poison. And I am addicted.

No matter how many times I go into rehab. I will always, always WILLINGLY fall back into you.

I'm just saying that since I obviously don't have the strength nor the desire to resist you, you should be the one to step away.

Thanks.

30-day photo challenge

Here's something I can do for July. From http://pinterest.com/pin/51255703/

Wish me luck and inspiration!

I do believe (a love poem)

Here's a poem that I've known since grade school. I never knew who originally wrote it and I've seen several versions of it in the internet.

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I do believe that the Lord above
created you for me to love

He picked you up from all the rest
because he knows I love you best

I have a heart and it is true
But it has gone from me to you

So take good care of it just like I do
for I have none and you have two

If I go to heaven and you're not there
I'll wait for you by the golden gates

If you're not there by judgment day
I'll know you went the other way

So I'll return my angel wings
my golden harp and my everything

To prove to you my love is true
I'll go to hell just to be with you

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Love is where is you find it.

Daily Pleasure

My daily mini-games. I love kadokado.





Come join me!

Installing Love

Yet another cute email from the time when email was for cute forwarded message and not urgent emails from clients. Hehehe.

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Tech Support:  Yes, ... how can I help you?
 

Customer:        Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed? 

Customer:        Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support:  The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer:        Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running ?

Customer:        Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support:  No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer  disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being  properly installed. Can you turn those off ?

Customer:        I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer:        Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer:        Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components."  What should I do?

Tech Support:  Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer:        So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files:  Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer:                Okay, done.

Tech Support:  Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will  overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely
gone and never comes back.

Customer:        Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support:  Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure
to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool  modules back to you.

Customer:      Thank you, God.  

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Now, tell me if that doesn't make you smile.

I did this

"There comes a time in life when  you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you LAUGH SO HARD that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy."

Next up on my to-do: getting rid of MY pointless drama.

I'm done

with the mind games.

The problem is: I don't know how to tell you that I'm done.

Sometimes, I want to put all my cards on the table and tell you how I feel. Then I get scared. I don't do it. I go back to the mind games.

This time, I'm sticking to the plan. NO MORE mind games.

But I'm not going to force myself to tell you.

If it works out, then good. If not, maybe I will always wonder what could have been if I had told you.

Or not.

Run through the rain (from an old forwarded email)

A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Target. She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of innocence. It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Target.

We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day. I am always mesmerized by rainfall. I got lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child came pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day.

The little voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all caught in "Mom, let's run through the rain," she said.

"What?" Mom asked.

"Let 's run through the rain!" She repeated.

"No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied.

This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mom, let's run through the rain,"

"We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said.

"No, we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl said as she tugged at her Mom's arm.

"This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?"

"Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said, 'If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!"

The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes.

 

Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.

"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If GOD let's us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said

Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.

And yes, I did. I ran. I got wet. I needed washing.

Circumstances or people can take away your material possessions, they can take away your money, and they can take away your health. But no one can ever take away your precious memories...So, don't forget to make time and take the opportunities to make memories everyday. To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.

 

I HOPE YOU STILL TAKE THE TIME TO RUN THROUGH THE RAIN.

After several days of rain and gloomy weather, I love the weak watery sunlight filtering through the clouds today. Making the wet leaves really green. Shafting through my curtains.




It reminds me of infinite possibilities.

My mom's supportive (-_-)

Rainy long weekend spent with family. Enough said.

Anyway, this morning, I weighed 112 pounds. That's 8 pounds more than when I transferred to this new job almost 9 months ago. That's also beyond the ideal weight for my height and frame. I should do a diet and fitness plan. Nyark.

So, I related my weight gain to my mom over breakfast, who commented:

"I hope you're not pregnant." (Me thinking: What the...!?!) Then she continued:

"When I was that age, I already had three kids and still weighed 90 pounds."

Me: "Well Mom, you should be glad I was able to surpass you at something."

Hehe.