just made a couple of new friends today. not bad for someone who's not really excited about the future. I had the thought that if I could just get through the next week, and week after next and the next and so on, I could probably get through the rest of my life. of course, I really can't say what the state of my mind will be by then, but most people probably won't notice the difference since I'm almost crazy now...or I've gone completely crazy without my realizing it.

hate the thought that I will actually have to work hard now for something I don't enjoy. I'm still in denial, procrastinating and generally still not getting anything done.

spent quality time with a friend today. or more like wasted a couple of hours with a friend today. just talking and hanging out, listening to music...stuff I really like. maybe got a few minutes of studying in...