Have you decided who you'll be for 2013?

Taking this weekend to prepare for the New Year!:) And a new life.

Yihaa!

maybe the reason this relationship is no longer working is that I'm no longer the same girl I was five years ago.

Or three years ago.

Thank God.

Boom.

I'm happy for you now.

The only question is:

Why couldn't you be happy with me then?

You were a part of my past.

You are absent from my present.

Whether you will be in my future is up to you. And my mood. It depends on my mood.

On being thankful

Starting with a friend's wedding on the first weekend of December, I have been attending Mass regularly (at the time of this writing, a total of 3 times!).

I'm not a particularly religious person, though I did study in a Catholic school. Attending Mass nowadays is not because I've reached or am reaching for a certain kind of enlightenment. It's actually something I promised God back when I was studying for the bar. okay, okay, I wasn't exactly praying those times (I left that to my Mom), I was engaging in hardball negotiations. Hehehe.

I did say that if I failed, I was going to kill myself :(  And if I passed the bar, I was going to go to Mass for one whole year.

I took the bar back in 2007 and the results were out in 2008. God has been very good to me and my family during the intervening years between then and now, and I'm also thankful for that.

Almost five years later, I'm only now starting to hold my end of the bargain.

Sorry, I'm late.

not sure if I should continue singing

"I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love"
(Jason Mraz)

or if I should just sing

f*ck you (f*ck you)
f*ck you very, very much
(Lily Allen)

naaah! I've already made up my mind about you. There's no uncertainty left.

I've noticed that my site has been receiving a lot of traffic from suicidekings.biz...I'm not on suicide watch, am I? Hehehe.

I wonder what gamers like about my site?

2013 Resolutions

I was having a hard time coming up with what I really wanted to focus on for 2013. Until I received an email from a friend who shall not be named! It was a forwarded email of (of all things!) a novena to St. Joseph....for a good spouse! Hahaha!

Well, aaaanyywaayyy, I know she meant well, and after some research (because I'm OC like that) I found out that the St. Joseph novena also works for career, and real estate concerns. Hmmmm....

Well, I'm quite happy with my job. I could always use more real estate (hehehe). Uhm, a good spouse? I'm sure that will be nice in the future, but it requires commitment, right??? Geez, even the novena requires some level of commitment and effort. :)

But, I digress. I made up my mind about my resolutions! I've narrowed it down to one!

CREATE!

it could be anything...artistic projects, opportunities, happiness, discord (jk)....

or

procreate. Yeah, that'll do.:)

December, you break my heart.

It's official!

A long and difficult road ahead of me.

I believe I can do this.

I will deal with this.