Of course my family. But which of my friends? At work? Will they treat me differently? Do I want to be treated differently? Can I trust them not to treat me differently? Can I trust them to not show any pity? Maybe I shouldn't say anything? Just live my life as normally as possible? Maybe they'd want to spend more of their time with me since I have so little time left? Should I pull back?
Do I start doing all the things I wanted to do? Try the crazy things and get the adrenaline rush? Or do I enjoy the quiet times and realize that the best things are in the little moments?
Do I go to all the places I planned to visit? Travel the world while I'm still able? Or do I stay where I am and find that there is an entire universe in my neighborhood?
And what about ? Should I let him go? I could be so selfless and tell him he deserves someone so much better, someone who could give him forever? But wouldn't he see that as selfishness on my part? What if he wants to spend the rest of my life with me. Would it be right for me to make the choice for him?
Or maybe I could be selfish and keep him by side as much as I can. Squeeze a lifetime together in the months I have left?
Oh my God, I have so little time and I have to make the best of it. But I don't know what is the best.
