let's do it again

first week of the second semester. my last semester (hopefully, my last) started out ordinarily enough. had to spend the whole day enlisting for my desired electives. waited hours just to be able to pay my tuition. then, when I thought everything was finally over, I realized I had to change one of my electives.

already had classes, and already had my first duty day at ola. yep, nothing's changed, I can definitely live without it. changed teams though...I must now contend with entirely new cases and clients.

just a little bit excited over my classes. will probably spend a lot of time in the library because I only have 14 units, and I want to do really well.

cramming....again!

rushing to finish a take home exam due tomorrow. have no idea how I'm to go about it. have final exam on thursday...totally have not started studying for that one.

so looking forward to sem break but just realized that I will have no break because I have two papers to finish. plus the pleadings I have to do for ola. damn!

my schedule is shot to hell for next sem. I want to avoid some professors but cannot really decide because I still have to wait for one more class.

well, got to get back to work.

end of ola

finally! got through the legal clinic alive. had dinner with my teammates and sl last wednesday. and had 2 days vacation because of the typhoon. don't have that many regrets, just so glad that it's finally over...I know, I know... I still have another semester to get through and will probably have the same cases over again, but I can't help rejoicing over the fact that I survived without losing so much of myself.

hoping to get the same day for ola duty but still waiting on one of my back subjects. everything hinges on the schedule of my required classes...hope they won't conflict with my desired ola duty time. have only 14 units to go, I'm still considering whether I'll take extra units...don't know, I really want an easy life.

finals are just around the corner, anyway, I got a really low grade for the midterm exam I really studied for. got highest in the second quiz for another subject. oh well, win some lose some.

today is the last bar sunday...had very little sleep helping with the bar operations...can't believe that next year it would be me and my friends (God willing!) taking the bar.

have a finals exam this thursday...slightly worried about it but can't do anything about it either. have finished all my hearings and had the next ones scheduled for november. but still have pleadings to finish (hate this part, too)

I'm soooo looking forward to my vacation, but I know that until we turn over the cases to the next intern, I'm still responsible for them. trying to figure out if I want to come back to the same schedule...but I think it will all boil down to the other classes I want to take.

have grown fat the last couple of months...must be because of all the junk I'm eating to make myself happy...hahaha!!! that and the fact that there are a lot of good things to eat.

wake me up...you know the song

I've been busy the past weeks. suddenly my slow and lazy life is filled with deadlines and with the finals looming in the horizon...I find that I have not learned much during the semester.

one of my professors had to gall to appear only 4 times for the whole semester. sure he scheduled make-up classes but he was never there...in short, I'm going to have to study the subject on my own.

have hearings to attend and pleadings to finish...love my sl's system of work but find myself wishing that I won't ever have to go to court again or draft another pleading.

just one more semester until I graduate. I'm not exactly looking forward to it but have resigned myself to the thought...

you are the one

watched the movie you are the one...had a great time...cheesy romantic moves got to me...hahaha! course, it just might be that I'm really dying for a little romance in my own life.

"ber" months and christmas songs

it's september...and I already heard a christmas song over the radio. what is it with the "ber" months that get us automatically thinking of christmas anyway? I already have friends counting down the days until christmas... helloo!!! that's still a lifetime away. I have to get through the semester first, then the sem break, then part of 2nd semester, and of course my birthday! before it's christmas.

enough about that. have been busy doing mostly nothing the past week. don't know why, but I feel so tired lately...

remember the midterm exam I crammed for? well, I got a pretty good grade...almost made it to the top 5 of the class! have another quiz coming up in a couple of weeks. the other exam result will be released next saturday...that one, I'm really praying I did well.

anyway, it's september, and I can almost see the light...hahaha! at the end of this long dark tunnel. sometimes have an almost irresistible urge to scream and ask for mercy...but my more disciplined self always wins in the end. so I trudge back to my pc and get to work...

got plastered

was my brother's birthday, and of course, had a party. spent little time with friends over the weekend. and oh yeah! had my midterm exam last saturday. not sure if I did well on that one. felt a little easy but then again the last time I thought an exam was easy, got a really bad grade.

still in denial over the coming week...don't want to do anything. have decided to let god handle everything else. now doing minimal work on my requirements...am tired of running all over the city to get things done.

feel like being a loner for a while...and lately, I've been feeling very irritated at a friend of mine. must have reached my tolerance limit. hehehe. will probably be super bitchy in the next few weeks or so... am apologizing in advance to those who will get hurt.

I've been busy

started the week by not attending class last monday. no regrets on that one, I totally enjoyed vegetating in front of the television the whole day…I know I know, I have an exam on saturday…I’ve already started studying anyway. yehey for me!

tuesday, had a hearing which was reset…so I spent the whole morning battling traffic going to court and back to school. was scheduled to recite too, so I spent the afternoon studying for my class (therefore, too busy to study for my exam) made a friend, well sort of anyway…

today, got a new case assigned to me…uurgh!!! I really hate it and everything it entails (will probably hate everything connected to the legal clinic until I’m done with it – note that I didn’t say that I hated the people I work with) have a super soon deadline for which I did a few things tonight (therefore, still busy) but on the upside, got really good news today…the details I might share later.

I’ve been busy but I still have time to do this…heeheehee…nobody can say that I don’t have my priorities straightened out.

contemplating my circumstances

it's a holiday tomorrow but I have a make-up class. I have a hearing on tuesday for which I think I'm relatively prepared, but I'm still wishing that it won't push through. I'm already tired of all the things that I have to do for the legal clinic. I started the semester dreading it. now I really hate it. don't like working for these people. I'm not interested in their problems.

was talking to my friends last friday, and I told them that I am now ready to try another relationship...a real one with commitment and not just some random fling. hope that was true, because sometimes I can't help being afraid of trusting another person that much.

have midterms on the 26th, this time I've already started studying...don't want to be caught unprepared again. besides, I know I will need all the studying I can get for this subject.

it's almost the end of august, I don't feel like I've accomplished much...except for the legal clinic...I feel like everything I've done has been for that. well, we did manage to submit our slr topics on time. I guess we'll have to consult next week to find out which topics have been approved.

so looking forward to the end of the semester (but not the final exams). hope I survive the next months.

gone in 1 week

I know I said I won't drink for the rest of august. but last night up to early this morning I did. hahaha. had a great time with my blockmates...even though it was just a few of us, the main stays at stuff like these, who were there. so there we were, we started drinking at around 8:30pm. this time nobody got really trashed...the pacing was just right and we consumed more alcohol even though there were fewer of us.

of course, the talk invariably turned to our love/sex lives...won't bore you with the details. hahaha.

ended up tripping on a friend of mine...poor guy. rich and I weren't even tipsy that time.

feeling very productive

have just completed several proposed outlines for our slr topics...yes, I've finally decided to just join a team for slr. and got several things done for the legal clinic.

have decided to stay at home today because the weather is decidedly gloomy. and besides, I don't really have anything important to do in school, since, thanks to the power of the internet, I could do everything at home.

I was just telling a friend of mine that I was super lazy over the weekend and he said that it's the middle of the sem, everyone's allowed to slack off a little. I didn't have the heart to tell him that I'm generally lazy just that I was SUPER lazy over the weekend...it was unusual even for me.

but, I feel like I'm making up for the super lazy weekend today...heehee. for some people, what I have accomplished so far today may seem like nothing, but believe me, being able to work and finish 2 different "thinking" things in a span of 3 hours is cause for celebration for me.

will now attempt to try a 3rd thinking thing...in other words, I will attempt to study coz I'm drafted to recite tomorrow.

staying up late doesn't help

slept the whole day today. so now I can't sleep. I promised myself that I'd make my schedule more reasonable...you know, no more dawn appointments online...heehee. but, here I am, nearly midnight and still awake...mind you, I haven't done anything productive over the weekend. well, I did make some progress on some of my slr topics...deadline is this week.

have decided to sleep by midnight and wake up at 6 or 7 or 8 in the morning. but won't start today. have another midterm exam coming up... I'm in worse shape for this one, coz I really don't understand most of what I'm reading for the subject. and this time, I have resolved to start studying tomorrow... if I get everything done for the legal clinic...damn!damn!damn!

just about to give up on my candy...he's not giving me any encouragement anyway. have decided to move on...hate being on the rebound. bad for my disposition, and generally makes me very naughty...winkwinknudgenudge

narrow escape

had only one class today. and even after 2 weeks since the assignment was given, I still wasn't prepared for today's discussion. sat through the whole class...well, that's not entirely correct. left the class with 30 minutes to go, to go to the bathroom...and didn't go back. course, the whole 2 hours and 30 minutes that I was there, I was praying that I wouldn't get called, and that if I did called, it would be on a case that I actually read! thankfully, I wasn't called...heehee...maybe the professor saw the panic in my eyes.

found out today that tricia and I were eyeing the same guy in the library... this is the first time that we actually like the same guy, since she usually goes for rugged earthy types and I go for...

well, anyway, it's friday and it's raining, and I didn't have anywhere to go and nobody to go there with...I've decided to forego drinking for the whole month of august, that pretty much leaves me with little options for afterschool activities. will probably go stir crazy after two weeks.

waaaahhhhh!!!!

had my midterm exam today. feel like I've been through the wringer. I crammed the whole afternoon, and no, I didn't even finish the coverage.

enough about that, it's moot anyway...heehee.

had a boring day...because I was cramming in the library. didn't see anybody interesting. I haven't seen my candy in weeks. I miss him already, well, since we don't really talk, I miss looking at him already.

haven't ym-ed with a couple of my regular chatmates in a couple of weeks, too. sigh* I think I must have been too busy lately, plus I got sick. miss them already.

have to think up topics for my legal research. don't know what interests me... which of course makes everything more difficult. will probably resort to joining a team.

still can't get over how hard the midterm exam was!!!

supposed to be studying

like I said, I have a midterm exam tomorrow, and I'm supposed to be cramming tonight. instead, I find myself in front of my computer surfing the internet. writing about how I'm supposed to be cramming.

I don't know, it must be part of my genetic make-up or whatever. or it could be a self-destructive cycle on my part. I know I need to study, but I can't (or won't, I'm still deciding).

in a fit of productivity (or just plain procrastination) I've been able to update my other blog, my friendster, myspace, and multiply. heehee. I've also watched my friends' slideshows and videos.

let me perform a study. I'll cram tomorrow, right before the exam and we'll see how it turns out.

yehey!!!

I just realized that I survived the first half of the semester!!! Yehey!!!

have completely recovered. but, still have catching up to do for my readings. have midterms on thursday, I'm no way near being ready for the exam. will cram tomorrow night.

had a chat yesterday with an acquaintance. heehee...too bad, a friend of mine wasn't there. it would have made her day. sort of surprised that he (the acquaintance) opened up to me. I mean, we're not exactly close, and we don't have that much in common.

this morning got invited to a study date... I refused coz I was already hungry and I wanted to go home early. sorry ka na lang, mahina ang charms mo sa kin. heehee...

wanted to watch sukob, but couldn't find anybody to watch it with. sigh* guess will wait for bootleg copy of the movie.

sick

been sick lately. not yet completely recovered. trying to get as much rest as I can, but of course, I feel well enough to sit and surf the internet.

have exams next week, still haven't complied with my requirements. heehee...I promise to do everything by tomorrow.

friend of mine is getting married over the weekend. haven't found the gift yet, and ohmigod! don't have anything to wear!

another week gone

wasted another day in my life of wasted days. waited 2 hours for a person who never arrived.

can't believe how fast the time goes. feels like my days are speeding by, but in slow motion -- don't know how to describe it -- every moment takes forever but the days sort of go by in a blur.

have party tomorrow. definitely will party. looking forward to this party for 2 weeks now. can't wait to see all my friends. will have fun.

had crazy conversations today in school. nobody was in the mood to study...it doesn't help that our professor is someone we just sort of respect. will probably have to cram (like I always do) for finals. but anyway, that's still more than 2 months away. can't really get worried about it. besides, have party tomorrow.

2nd consecutive no class day

being cooped up in the house is starting to get on my nerves. plus, I've been eating almost continuously since yesterday. sweets, my God! probably won't be able to fit into my jeans when classes finally resume. which, going by the way the rain hasn't stopped since early morning, won't be tomorrow.

there's nothing to watch on television. you're probably thinking, why won't she study so she can catch up with her assignments? well...don't want to. besides, I've been doing some catching up -- on sleep! bwahahaha!

must study must study

just had to say that my prayers were answered. my hearing did not push through today. heeheehee.

hope nobody gets hurt at the rallies later at the SONA.

now, I have to study for my midterms. have backlog in 2 subjects and will probably fall behind in another subject. have party on the 29th, and looking forward to it. no date yet. probably won't date again in the near future... want to concentrate on my studies. course, there are always certain guys I'd make an exception for...if only they'd ask me out.

haven't made any progress yet in my readings, will get around to it later. right now enjoying my holiday.

wishing for a miracle

have hearing tomorrow, and in one of those funny twists of faith (or tragic, depending on your point of view) I have no witness to present. quite unlike my other clients who are forever hounding me to do this and that and reminding me of my various deadlines, my client for tomorrow (or at least the contact person they gave me) has been rejecting all my phone calls and not replying to my text messages. have a mind to let them all rot in jail, but my conscience won't let me. damn!

classes at UP are already suspended for tomorrow's SONA..

it's july, and I keep reminding myself to just hang on. the end is almost in sight. well, at least, a little lightening of my schedule come august. aaargh....

just realized that I have not gone out on a date for 2 weeks and 3 days... sigh*

rainy days and good things

having a really hard time getting out of bed in the mornings. rainy days, or just gloomy mornings really tempt me to just stay in bed and to hell with all my responsibilities. good thing most of my classes are in the afternoon. there's no conflict of interest, though I have to be honest that I'm having my share of guilt in the fact that I'm not exerting a lot of effort in my requirements.

still coasting along. good thing I have responsible friends, who are not at all finicky when it comes to their intellectual property... read: they share their notes and reviewers with me.

good thing, too, that my class tomorrow is cancelled. now if only my hearing for next week would also get reset...

don't really have anything to say. but I've gotten to the point that I enjoy this sort of anonymous blog more than my known diary blog.

didn't have class today but I still went to school. didn't accomplish much. will probably kill myself next week trying to get everything done.

must confess I was hurt by how somebody treated me today. we've always spent long hours chatting on the internet, I thought we'd become friends. but when I saw him today -- not even a smile or a wave. sigh*

apparently, the rainy days have put a damper on everybody else's mood. library was nearly empty today. or maybe, I was the only one stupid enough to go to school. and will probably be in school tomorrow coz I have a class. hope I don't get called, since I haven't studied yet. and have no plans of studying tonight.

have party next saturday, not tomorrow. don't know if I will attend coz I have a hearing with really scary judge, monday after the party.

lazy day

classes are suspended for today. caught up on sleep already. just woke up, now eating first meal of the day. contemplating reading for my class tomorrow but still hoping for continued suspension of classes.

had interesting conversations with several people yesterday. had time to talk because classes were also suspended yesterday. everybody at loose ends. not much in the way love life, at least in my case. but things are definitely looking up for somebody within my sphere of influence. hahaha.

actually, I really want to have classes tomorrow. am really looking forward to something. had me all giggly this past week. hope it plays out wonderfully. hate to be disappointed.

realized I haven't seen a couple of friends the whole week. surprising, given that law school is so small. but what do I know.

undecided

been trying out different titles lately. can't decide. it's quite a good reflection of the state of my life these days. and no, I didn't get to party over the weekend. stayed in bed and planned to plan my life. haha.

I was sort of productive, waded through most of my required paperwork. finished a few things on my to-do list. complained about my slow ISP. generally, had a sucky ordinary day.

found out something interesting about this guy. appears we're the same age. never even occured to me that we might be in the same age group. course, I'm way behind my chronological age when it comes to emotional maturity. probably why I couldn't seem to relate to him.

finally, broke up. single again. wondering if I should go looking. probably will just concentrate on law school.

missed opportunities

survived another week. hoping to accomplish something this weekend. will probably pass up a great opportunity to party tomorrow night.

had a few moments with this guy, and he shared his opinions about how some things are better with quantity not quality. but that our relationship was more on quality rather than quantity. guess he means that he likes whatever time we spend together but not that he wants to spend most of his time with me.

still looking for my rhythm. spending way too much time in the library - not accomplishing much, though. waiting for the right time to break things up. still enjoying the cushy set-up but I know that I will have to end things soon. sometimes have bouts of guilt.

would really love to party tomorrow.

busybusybusy

had a great time over the weekend. went to a party, this time did not get drunk. danced a little, flirted a little, had fun a lot. can't believe it's already july. still in denial over the state of my calendar. not making much headway, but at least no backlog in stuff I have to read. oops, I do have backlog in 2 subjects.

waiting for someone to notice me. found this guy I might like. he's being very nice to me whenever we see each other. another guy wouldn't notice me even if I stand on my head naked. realized this after the party...no, during the party. don't exist. will probably give up in a few weeks.

sort of happiness

had a happy day today, even though I got called in class. feel like I'm getting the hang of things. sort of caught up with all the things I have to do.

I'm not looking forward to the next couple of weeks. seems like my calendar is full of red marks (for deadlines) in addition to all that I have to do just to keep up with my reading assignments.

I'm glad it's the weekend. love lazing about, and rainy days and nights just complete the picture. will get around to drafting all my memos next week.

craving ice cream.

struggle

have a lot of work ahead of me. already seriously thinking of giving everything up. got my priorities in my head, though my priorities might not exactly be what other people think should be prioritized. but what do I care? (actually, I do care about what people think of me) been having a hard time adjusting. plus the fact that I don't particularly want to.

attended a party last night, got roaring drunk and almost embarrassed myself completely over this guy. sure, I embarrassed myself but not entirely. not fooling myself that the guy will forget what I did, but am wishing that everything is as fuzzy to him as it is to me. bwahahaha!!!

course, it also helps that I don't really know him, and probably won't get a chance to "explore our friendship more".

this stupidity was the result of my realizing that I've been betting on the wrong horse all along. but then better late than never is what they always say. though personally, I think it's better to be "never done that" to "shouldn't have done that"

just made a couple of new friends today. not bad for someone who's not really excited about the future. I had the thought that if I could just get through the next week, and week after next and the next and so on, I could probably get through the rest of my life. of course, I really can't say what the state of my mind will be by then, but most people probably won't notice the difference since I'm almost crazy now...or I've gone completely crazy without my realizing it.

hate the thought that I will actually have to work hard now for something I don't enjoy. I'm still in denial, procrastinating and generally still not getting anything done.

spent quality time with a friend today. or more like wasted a couple of hours with a friend today. just talking and hanging out, listening to music...stuff I really like. maybe got a few minutes of studying in...

start of something

today, I started something I don't particularly like. something that I have been dreading since I entered law school. it's something that I'm not sure I'll even finish. but I have to finish if I want to get something accomplished.

cryptic. I love it. yesterday, I spent a few moments with this person I really like, well, maybe sort of like. it's different now that we're back to the being from different year levels. we're not so much friends as mere acquaintances. bwahaha. of course, I know that he's already off limits.